Meme from dr_silverrose

[cybertrixx]

Elaborate on your default icon.

It's Nightmare from Soul Calibur - The evil, twisted shadow of the shiny (angsty) hero Siegfried, possessed by the soul-devouring blade Soul Edge in order to carve a blood-soaked path across medieval-fantasy europe. In later editions it's not even siegfriend anymore - merely his armour animated and inhabited by a physical manifestation of Soul Edge itself.

What's your current relationship status?
None. And that's just the way I like it.

Ever have a near-death experience?
Don't know. Had something really weird once, when extremely ill in bed with pneumonia with a temperature through the roof and drifting in and out of lucidity. Not certain it was an NDE, probably not. Was frickin' weird though.

Drifting in a timeless place away from sight and sound with nothing but a soft, soothing undulating blue backdrop, and then suddenly there are things. Shapes, too shiny to properly make out yet one is aware they are there. Upon further inspection...are they...fish? Why, yes. They don't look like fish, but they slowly swim along in perfect ordered formation through the cool soft blue background. How odd...there's something bad about them too. Something bad and *wrong*. Not malice, so much as alienness. As they come closer (or are they merely staying where they are while the world around them expands?) an overwhelming sense of panic - a desire to escape, to leave. But there is nowhere to run, no ground to run on, and one realises there are no legs to run with, even. It's terrifying, hot and overwhelming. As these strange fish-like things come closer they become more agitated, their cohesion breaks and they explode apart into spiralling geometric tunnels. The background zooms as the world is drawn into one of the tunnels, and there is a sense of falling that is far more fundamental than merely a momentary acceleration or sense of weightlessness. Like one is falling through the very hallucination that is occuring, towards a bottomless void below. The void sinks *past* darkness, off the end of the scale and back round to blinding, staggering light. For an agonising timeless moment, it is like the entire world is arrayed before you and screaming 'This is not for you. This is beyond you. You can't possibly understand, don't look'. There is nothing else for what could be minutes or could be hours - it's impossible to tell.

Eventually, the reeling sickly 'this is beyond and above and utterly utterly incomprehensibly huge' feeling subsides, the fish-like entities fade away and it's all gone. This would be the point that one wakes up and is violently sick. *shudder* Pretty sure I wasn't really scared of the dark before that particular episode.

Name an obvious quality you have.
Erm...friendliness? I would have said 'infuriatingly chipper' but the last year or so has -looking back- somewhat stripped me of that quality. Grrr. Stressed, snappy and occasionally grumpy nowadays.

What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
Nothing. Have a pounding headache. Bah.

Any celeb you would marry?
Um...mind's entirely blank. Nah. Don't think so.

Who will cut and paste this first?
Hmmm, good question. Does anyone actually read this who hasn't already posted it, and is similarly inclined to do so?

Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
Not really.

Do you wear a watch? What kind?
Used to at school. Then must have put it down somewhere and not bothered to put it back on. It's most likely still in my room somewhere.

Do you have anything pierced?
No. Never really saw the point (ha)

Do you have any tattoos?
Nope.

Do you like pain?
Good pain or bad pain? Good pain as in 'scratch that itch', bad pain as in 'oh fucking hell you bastard headache!'

Do you like to shop?
For kit, hell yeah. Not for too long though. Tend to get a sudden and inexplicable cut-off moment, when it's like 'ok, that's enough'.

What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Lunch.

What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card?
A sandwich on the train.

Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
Phil at LA Fitness Aldgate re: connectivity issues.

What is on your desktop background?
At home (since the work one is empty) a cool drawing of an angel from deviantart.

What is the background on your cell phone?
A purdy picture of sagittarius from raphaelcentari's phone.

Do you like redheads?
I am not adverse to them.

Do you know any twins?
Yes.

Do you have any weird relatives?
Oh, definitely.

What was the last movie you watched?
The Machinist

What was the last book you read?
The last one I've been reading was Scar Night (Alan Campbell)

Is there such a thing as love at first sight, or it is more likely to be "lust at first sight"?
I'm really not a good person to answer that. I'd say 'no', it comes and goes in subtle waves.

What's your favourite novel?
Love 'Altered Carbon' by Richard Morgan. Love 'The Wasp Factory' by Ian Banks. Love 'His Dark Materials' by Philip Pullman. Rather enjoyed 'The Drive In' by some guy I can't recall for it's trashy B-movie apocalypse concept. Really worth picking up, if you come across it. One of the best intro's ever!

When was the last time you visited the street where you first lived?
Wow. First lived? Haven't been back to The First Farm (as opposed to The Farm, which I consider 'mine') since...well...I can't even remember.

Do you read your horoscope?
With tongue firmly wedged in cheek, yes.

Who's your favourite of the seven dwarves?
Wow. I can't even recall their names. Sad...

When was the last time you googled your own name?
Must have been...ooh...five or six years ago? During gap year inevitably.

What was your favourite subject at school?
Electronics was fun, if not particularly productive (best combination, I guess). Art would have been great were it not for irritatingly overbearing teacher. Dare I say it...R.E?

What was your least favourite subject at school?
Urgh. Maths was bad. Geography pretty bad. P.E. - argh fuck off.

Do you like having your photograph taken?
Since the likelihood of 'good photo' is seemingly less likely (unless in kit and copious amounts of makeup) than the likelihood of 'bad photo', generally no.

What time were you born?
Ooh, early in the morning.

Ever seriously questioned your sanity?
With all seriousness, rather than 'Ooh look at me! I'm so wacky and kerrazy!' actually yes a month or two back I did. It wasn't a good frame of mind.

How many phone numbers do you have memorized and can say off the top of your head?
Good god. Home, my phone, work, that's about it.

Can you Limbo?
Heehee, haven't done that for a while. Possibly?

Have you ever killed your own dinner?
Yup.

How long have you been living at your current residence?
Umm, since July.

What phobias do you have?
The dark has always been a constant enemy of mine. Supernatural 'things' that you can't touch or see.

What's your ideal breakfast?
Bacon, egg, pizza, hash browns... (yes, pizza)

Where are you right now?
Work

What book or movie title best summarizes your personality?
The title itself, or the subject matter? Difficult one.

If you could suddenly get the skill to play any single musical instrument, which would you choose?
Harp could be fun...

Why do you blog?
Why not?

Do you have any prejudices you're willing to acknowledge?
I think it would serve no purpose to illustrate them here. Suffice to say that one is perfectly capable of functioning while ignoring/curbing them.

What would you call your autobiography?
'What the hell was that all about?'

What's the longest time you've stayed out of the country/where?
3 months - america

Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..?
Yup.

Do you have nightmares frequently?
The line between dream and nightmare is frequently non-existent.

If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
It's quite hard to *not* be friends with people.